So, Christmas went well. The husband and I took vacation the week before/of Christmas and were able to spend it with our families. Christmas was thrifty this year. Without me pulling in any income, and since student loans that used to keep us afloat are no longer coming in, we've been tight in the wallet. I am about to enter repayment of my loans and it's going to be a hefty chunk of the little income we've got coming in. Basically, we won't be able to eat.
I've been tempted to file bankruptcy to get rid of my other debts, or try to settle them somehow, but my credit is so good... I may not have a choice, though.
If I could find a damn job, this wouldn't be an issue.... but we live in a town now where there are no jobs beyond nursing, and the average income is 25k a year (which is what my husband brings in alone). If I could make about a grand a month after taxes, I'd be in a great spot. But, that means I would have to find a job that pays me about $375 a week or at least $10-11 per hour. Do jobs like that exist around here? Not really. I can probably pull off about $8 an hour if I want to flip burgers at McDonalds.
With an art degree, I may as well have figured before we moved here that I wouldn't be able to find any employment. Sports take a higher spot than art ever will here. What the Hell was I thinking? I can't survive in a small town, I need to be where the art scene is. It means more competition, but it means a chance at a job. There's no chance for me to become employed doing something in my field here.
I've gone as low as to apply for minimum wage positions working at Staples and Walgreens. Degrees don't mean much of anything anymore, do they?
Why did I have to graduate at the worst possible time since 1985? Why did our country become so royally screwed in the past 10 years?
If Obama really wants to help this country, he should wipe out all student loan debt taken out before 2010. Imagine how much extra money recent graduates will have to spend.
I'm ranting. I'm upset. More than anything I'm upset at myself for not seeing this coming, or for having the mindset that I would get a good job and the loan payments wouldn't be that bad. STUPID.
I didn't expect to move out here into the country, but my poor husband couldn't find a job where we were. Now I can't where we are. It's a never-ending cycle of BS. We could leave, but not without hurting his reputation in the church sector. I've even tried looking for jobs an hour or an hour and a half away and haven't found a thing worth it. It's been 6 months. We have no friends, I can't find a job, and we're stuck here, at least for another 6 months. How MISERABLE.
I need a million dollar idea... or a miracle... or an inheritance... or just a freaking job. I'm willing to work if anyone was willing to hire me.
The best part? Tonight is the New Years Eve party for the youth, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to work hard only to have a bunch of them skip out, or not even show, and it's going to annoy the crap out of me.
